Sunday, December 26, 2010
Okay... I haven't really kept to my word about keeping my blog to be active! Will try to update more often. My maternity leave is almost coming to an end. =( Am deciding whether or not to return to work earlier so at least i have 'extra' leave for future use. One thing i can't bring my heart to is to have my girl in the care of my mil. ( Yes.. i'm not trying to be rude or what, but some mils' has jus either lost 'touch' in taking care of a baby. And worst part is, she's a woman after all. Having to face her menopause or woman pee Qi is damme irritating. 不到一两天就给我脸色看!! If she woke up from the wrong side of bed, she can treat as if i and baby are invinsible!! haiiz the story jus goes on...) But geeez i know i have to face this negative thought of mine sooner or later.. My lil diamond has been playing with her saliva lately at almost 2mo. Uber cuteness!! Love her to the bits! Come to think of it besides the years i was in Chanel, I haven't celebrated christmas 'outside' the club. This year was a heart warming one as i spent it with my family and my lil princess. Too bad hb has to work.. Tonight gonna have another blast at company party!! dbl O staff always has no luck in the lucky draws.. We shall see tonight! =)
Merry Christmas everyone!!!
Friday, November 19, 2010
14 Days to Go!!!
Yes! Officially, it should be 14 more days towards the end of my confinement. But have decided to hold Cerys's Bb shower on the 28th which means it only 10 days! Hopefully i will feel more at ease in terms of emotions, mentality, etc.. Been feeling too uptight recently. Everyday seeing Hb go work immediately I can't wait for his return. My dad visits me often these days during his off days with the yummiiliious confinement food he brings for me to makan and i will try not to finish everything up so i have some the next day. But as soon as Daddy makes his way home also, how i wish i can go back with him too.. haiiz. Everything is about Bb.. In-direct arguements arise with the concerns of the upbringing of her. Whether to straight away carry her when she cries, whether to give her this to take, whether to put her to playpen to sleep at this time.. But of the above, the one that follows accordingly so far has been the time she's suppose to be on bed. I just don't want later she takes certain 'ways' as a habit. Bad Habit - I call that. Carrying straight away to be exact. But i have different opinions and advises coming in and I am all ears out. Maybe I am wrong in my step. Correct me. Teach me what's a better way. Parenting is never easy. Many many trials and errors. Now I knew how my parents feel when I was 12yo.
Sorry Mama & Papa..
Sorry Mama & Papa..
And I lost my phn.. hence am using a phn that I duno how to upload pics. Gimme awhile and I update with pictures ay.. =)
Monday, November 15, 2010
THE - day
Have finally managed to adjust and set aside some time to blog after a hectic 2 weeks of juggling time and baby and sleep. Bb girl has finally arrived on the 2th Nov. =) After the long wait, tears flowed the moment i heard her cries. Moment of joy, relieved and happiness. That aside, it was the beginning of 'something' I have yet to expect, yet to know, awaiting to learn. My emotions were super upside down the first few days after birth. Being a noobie in breastfeeding, my nipples became swollen n sore. Very pain!!! I was upset, depressed i couldn't provide my girl with the milk. Nurses asked if i wanted to give her formula I said no.. I wanna total breastfeed her!! End up no choice, i'm afraid she will be hungry I asked for formula for her. I cry the moment i'm unable to latch her on properly. I felt like a failure. Dunno why.. alot of very negative thoughts flew into my mind. Esp bout my M.i.L !! haiiz... Oh my the way i see her handle a newborn, im thinking did she actually forgot how to take care of one or what??!!~~ That day only she wore the diapers for my lil one, the diapers was halfway off my girl's bum bum larh!!! *pengz The day before she deny she did anything to lil girl. The same thing happen, Hub n me were out for awhile when we return i came hm only to realise bb girl's was without her shorts n her diapers were sooooo loooose! So, I had no choice but to set awareness to my hb so he knws what's wrong.. Otherwise when i return to work how??? Burping bb, ask me hw to? temperature after warming of milk? ask me whether ok? Everyday only knw how to take away baby from me when it's feeding time. But did she once check bb's diapers if its soiled? NO! only know how to wanna hug, feed her. thats it. Was talking to Budd the other day, maybe she has her good thoughts and i''m just being a lil over possesive over bb, probably she feels im on confinement don't wanna add 'load' onto me.. Maybe, probably.. But hb bought Mac for me, it was ok. Ok ma for confinement?? I know nuts about what to do during confinemnt except those cannot bath, the 红早水 must drink for a month, la di da la di da.. I stil shower, with the herbal bath thingy, i follow not to drink cold drinks and only that 红早水.
_ After Discharged _
Day 1 @ Night ----> Never did i expect it would be that.. erm.. mind wrecking..? We still were noobs in changing diapers, we didn't know what to do after hoaxing her, checking her temperature, room temperature but she still cry cry cry... Haiiyo! I couldn't breastfeed as my titties were sore already back from the hospital. I couldn't anymore tolerate much pain for her to suckle. So I pump out and give her through bottle in the day and formula by night.. =(
The following next few days wasn't as bad even though I was practically up for like 20+ hrs.. I feel exhausted but yet mentality wise i am rather quite awake. Anyway.. it really ain't an easy job being a first time parent, to take care of another being, a newborn. I take my hats off my 伟大的妈妈 girlfrens.. most of them with 2-3 kiddos. I think i will stop at 2. Am now reading this book called What to Expect - The First Years by Heidi Murkoff. It tells and explains to you certain scenarios you would probably encounter from the time baby is born till he/she reaches one. Providing you options and solutions, it's like a baby-survival bible.. lol A recommended good buy.
My milk supply seems to only be able to meet her daily requirements. Any tips to be able to pump out even more besides the eating more fish? I'm hoping to be able to store as much before i return to work. I'm expressing every 3hrs now. At night I will pump once only or should i pump 1 mre interval?
Friday, October 29, 2010
I realised that my blog looks differently when being viewed in IE and Firefox. IE, my fonts are so big.. Firefox, they are to what i want. hmmm... Still figuring out the changes required as im not sucha techy person.
It's that time of the year again.. Halloween!! It's also one of THE days that i enjoy my work the most as it will be super slam, super fun and most importantly time passes very fast. But this year im giving it a miss to await for the arrival of my lil girl.. On monday i went for my ob-gyn check-up, it was shut. Today being 4 days away to her edd, when i went to check again whether cervix has open, it's STILL shut tight. =( With much hesitation i wanted to do a c-sec last wed but changed my mind giving myself and lil girl till her edd. I really hope it will open soon! I don't wish to go through C-Sec when i have been anticipating for normal delivery!!!!! Seeing all the other mommies one by one all popping, I feel so happy for them but im still waiting, waiting and waiting... When girl... when??!! Went to Baby Fair at Expo last week.. nothing much as compared to the previous fair. Only thing i bought that left me with no regrets was the neck support. At local stores i see them priced at $7+, but they were sellling at $2.90 at the fair. Strollers and all i think doesn't make much of a difference. Some say water retention the third time means "It'S" coming.. How true??
It's that time of the year again.. Halloween!! It's also one of THE days that i enjoy my work the most as it will be super slam, super fun and most importantly time passes very fast. But this year im giving it a miss to await for the arrival of my lil girl.. On monday i went for my ob-gyn check-up, it was shut. Today being 4 days away to her edd, when i went to check again whether cervix has open, it's STILL shut tight. =( With much hesitation i wanted to do a c-sec last wed but changed my mind giving myself and lil girl till her edd. I really hope it will open soon! I don't wish to go through C-Sec when i have been anticipating for normal delivery!!!!! Seeing all the other mommies one by one all popping, I feel so happy for them but im still waiting, waiting and waiting... When girl... when??!! Went to Baby Fair at Expo last week.. nothing much as compared to the previous fair. Only thing i bought that left me with no regrets was the neck support. At local stores i see them priced at $7+, but they were sellling at $2.90 at the fair. Strollers and all i think doesn't make much of a difference. Some say water retention the third time means "It'S" coming.. How true??
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
14 Days more
Fifth day through my maternity leave = ? BOREDOM !!! At first i was really anticipating, getting all excited over my leave.. Now that it's here, it's so boring.. I've cleaned like every corner of the room, packed my lil girl's stuff, repacked my cupboard etc etc.. Is there any job out there that is those stay-home kind? Not tele-sales please.. Data-entry or any other i wouldn't mind. =) Went for my ob-gyn checkup yesterday, guess what.. i lost 1kg.! doc was worried hence i was placed on CTG scan. Everything looked fine now jus gotta carry on waiting.. n waiting..
This has so far been the Best shot taken, even better shot from the 3d scan.
Can't wait to have her in my arms!!
p/s : Congrats to Momma Stephanie on her arrival of Bb Addison!!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
in-laws
How then should one be considered a good in-law? I'm basically directing more towards as in being a good daughter in-law. Helping out with the housework? Cooking daily meals? Providing monthly allowances? How much should one provide for the mil that's considered sufficient? $600? $400? Putting into consideration that everything in the house is being settled for.. Utility bills, conservancy bills.. whenever she mention she has cashflow problems we give her still.. Yet she still not very satisfied. Hubby blew his top at mil today. BIG TIME. This is the first time i ever seen him so frustrated so agitated. =( I knew she had reached his limit. I don't know whether is that of a typical chinese family attitude she has, where she came from or what.. Now that the tenants have moved out, her 'income' also got cut-out by the hundreds. Maybe that's why she is resenting towards us. But why can't she put into consideration that her Grandchild our kiddo is on the way.. She never put these factors into her mind!! COMPLAIN & COMPARE & COMPLAIN I really had it that after my course today i went back home, my own Home. Dad was at home and i told him what happen.. suddenly tears just ran down my cheeks. I think i kinda kept certain things bout my mil for too long that the moment i poured my feelings out to Daddy i felt sorta relieved. I'm not saying i am a very very fantastic or wonderful diL.. But at least i am trying to be one, to compromise whatever i can with my mil. Now she is complaining we don't provide her enough, she does too much of s*** load of 'work' yet she gets nothing in return, that we don't PAY her $ for the food she cook, which is soo not true, that other people out there can provide more than what we are giving her.. Sometimes i really wanna tell her bout the things she does that i feel just ain't right.. From the portion she always cook, the dish washing sponges she changes ridiculously every 4-6 times monthly, the 'realities' her friends tells her, the facts, fictions or myths of hers.. aiyo the list just goes on lah.. haiiz. But for the sake of our relationship, my hubby, i 忍!!!
Daddy's advice : tahan! tahan! tahan! its all part and parcel of life. Part of marriage life. Don't take it to heart. Chinese family are mostly like that.. they tend to talk more bout money. Calculative at times. He had been there done that with my mom's parents, my grandparents. They hated him as he wasn't educated and all as compared to my mom who was a graduate. But yet.. When the NEED came, who was there? who was there to help the family? Who brought all of us up well with a roof above our head, with new textbooks every year, with proper food and clothing? My DAddY !! ("v")
Oh well.. I've thought through the whole day and the only solution i can think of to make things better is to confide today problem to my hubs sister. I'm sure my mil would have told her.. True enough she was at sil's place. Without an exchange of word in the car i fetched her home.. I text my sil about the situation and she told me not to worry. I trust her. I hope so things will turn out to be better.. At least for mil to have a better understanding of her son's situation and that she's actually not being neglected!! Walao if really don't have her in our priorities, we won't even be intending to have her move in with us when we have our own place dy larh..
Peace !!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
MC day
Supposedly i plan to get away with work last weekend with an mC, but after forecasting the sales figure i was pretty confident we will be able to hit the target for the month of Sept, hence i went ahead with work. The last month for me to chiong for that lil more incentive = more money that can be save for sweetheart. For that i had to forgo my once in very long time gathering with my girlfriends - the 38 jiemeis, =( Today, i took mc. Since i'll be going for my mL this month, doesn't make a difference if i take an extra absence from work. Rested. Sleep. Eat. I practically slept the whole day with nothing done except for now im uploading pictures into blogy..
35.5 wks > my 'v' area seems to hurt alil.. I'm starting to feel realli heavy there. In between my thighs also hurt alil making me kinda uncomfortable to walk at times. Baby's karate movements have increase in these past 2weeks. Counting down the clock.. 30 days.. Can't wait to have her in my arms.. <3
35.5 wks > my 'v' area seems to hurt alil.. I'm starting to feel realli heavy there. In between my thighs also hurt alil making me kinda uncomfortable to walk at times. Baby's karate movements have increase in these past 2weeks. Counting down the clock.. 30 days.. Can't wait to have her in my arms.. <3
Friday, September 24, 2010
Increment
All of us had been waiting very patiently from the so-called good news from the company. BUT, despite having our interim bonus being taken off due to the temporary closure of dbl O, despite those who got 'transfered' out and STILL got their bonuses, what we who have been loyal (yu may call it) to them got peanuts increment in return. Geeezzz... im so tired. I can forsee myself falling ill this sat.. wahaha i know it's not the right attitude. But with me being preggy n all and having to go beyond for these few months and what i got in return was haiiz.. Ya im most probably gonna go ahead with my plan.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
My Pregnancy
Into my 34th week of Pregnancy ...
( I know i'm kinda late in doing this, but hey better late than never right...)
8th week
Suffered food-poisoning after having milo peng with hubby after work. It was TERRIBLE! never wanna have that feeling ever again! PERIOD. I thought something had happen to baby. I felt like i was going to die like that.. I thought it was just another bad stomach flu, till the pain was incorrigible i kneeled down, vomitted and almost cried out in pain to my hubs. I decided that i should head to Kkh to check. Thank God baby was alright.
Suffered food-poisoning after having milo peng with hubby after work. It was TERRIBLE! never wanna have that feeling ever again! PERIOD. I thought something had happen to baby. I felt like i was going to die like that.. I thought it was just another bad stomach flu, till the pain was incorrigible i kneeled down, vomitted and almost cried out in pain to my hubs. I decided that i should head to Kkh to check. Thank God baby was alright.
- Craved for Viet rice paper roll. I could have it everyday without getting sick of it. yummy...
12th week
Lucky for me i don't have any nausea nor discomfort. So far my pregnancy has been okay except for the uncountable zits that has been appearing and irritating the sh** outta me. Cannot tahan!!
Lucky for me i don't have any nausea nor discomfort. So far my pregnancy has been okay except for the uncountable zits that has been appearing and irritating the sh** outta me. Cannot tahan!!
Apart from that, I also have been quite tempremental these days.. It's like every Sun also will have some arguments with hubbs. Shhuuggs!!
- Giddiness, super terrible complexion!! =(
- Giddiness, super terrible complexion!! =(
16th week
Tummy not that obvious yet. However i tend to get really giddy every now and then. Got to know baby's gender !! Hubs sister borrow me her doppler. Tia bo lorh!! Gums are bleeding even by the slightest touch. Didn't go to see the dentist though..
Tummy not that obvious yet. However i tend to get really giddy every now and then. Got to know baby's gender !! Hubs sister borrow me her doppler. Tia bo lorh!! Gums are bleeding even by the slightest touch. Didn't go to see the dentist though..
- No craving. No nausea.
24th week
Finally get to feel the fluttering feeling of sweetheart's movements. =) Though not strong at least it gives me sense of comfort and security that she is doing well.
Finally get to feel the fluttering feeling of sweetheart's movements. =) Though not strong at least it gives me sense of comfort and security that she is doing well.
- Backaches and giddiness still going on.
28th week
Went for check-up, baby is approx 1.7kg when she should be about 1.10kg according to some online site i was surfing. Doctor adviced me to cut down on carbo n meals.. But i also hardly like eat excessively ma.. Anyways, gonna see my lil one again in 3 weeks time.
Went for check-up, baby is approx 1.7kg when she should be about 1.10kg according to some online site i was surfing. Doctor adviced me to cut down on carbo n meals.. But i also hardly like eat excessively ma.. Anyways, gonna see my lil one again in 3 weeks time.
- Leg cramps, slight water retention if i stand too long..
33rd week
Sun - i felt really uncomfortable. Its as if my 'there' wanna drop like that.. Never felt like this before, tummy felt super duper uber heavy, the was kinda alil pain somehow at my pelvic bone area. I ask sil she said it should be fine as for her she felt during her 6mth. Sweetheart's movements has also increased a whole lot more during these two weeks. =) Love and treasuring every second of it!! <3
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Friends?
Two years ago during this period, shit happened. *coughz... what should I say." I'm trying to keep on the positive side, be pro-active, not be so pessimistic about this but somewhere down right in that lil girl in me still somehow or rather isn't too cool bout it. I also dunno how to go about this issue. It's just that words cant describe how i am feeling but a sense of . . . . . I DO NOT oppose the rest for their actions. haiiz... I understand the facts, haiya i jus wanna rant out my discomfort larh! This is just a very random ranting post...